[ Because clinging to basic human kindness after fifteen years of being treated like a living weapon might say something about her that she isn't willing to confront, and he's a person, not— not an endless compassion dispenser. Because the fact of her world mean she struggles to put down that last razor edge of suspicion.
The idea that sometimes she lies awake at night and wonders if she feels like this because she just does or because he—
And she knows that line of thought is incredibly unfair. It's unkind, disrespectful.
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Kind
Warm
Honest
Nice voice
Blue eyes
Smile
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Does he know you like him yet?
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No!
I can't tell him.
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The idea that sometimes she lies awake at night and wonders if she feels like this because she just does or because he—
And she knows that line of thought is incredibly unfair. It's unkind, disrespectful.
But all she says, here and now, is, ]
Not good enough.
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I just know.
He's a good person.
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What happened wasn't your fault.
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[ She certainly isn't ready to get into her history with The Shining Light, all the girls she killed because she was a little bit faster. ]
If I tell him and he rejects me, can we go for ice cream?
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( If only she knew... )
But yes.
I'll even pay.
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:)